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I’ve been feeling crazy lately.  It’s like the rug has been pulled out from beneath my feet. . .and it has been.  It came from two words thrown together by an elected governmental employee. . .”legitimate rape.”  The approval of violence against women by a congressman.

I didn’t think those words would affect me.  I have done a lot of healing from the events that tore my life apart in the mid-1980s.  In fact, I don’t think about it anymore.  I moved on in my life.  I stopped being afraid.  I can go out at night again, without being terrified.  I can sleep without the nightmares.

Then, I heard those two words. . .

I feel like I’m being pulled in two directions.  One is forward on my life path.  The other is into the tormented darkness of the time.  I almost committed suicide over the whole event, because I was so afraid and traumatized.  I felt so damaged and alone.

What saved me was my GOD dream.  It gave me the strength to stay here, heal and move on in my life.  It brought light into the nightmares that I lived through every night while I slept.  What helped me through the day was music, especially the song Allies by Heart.

I know that I am never alone.  The term GOD has changed to Creator, because of its connection with Christianity.  I am a truth seeker, and the hypocrisy that I’ve seen in the religion cannot be reconciled in my mind.  I do believe in the teachings of Jesus, and they translate into being a caring, compassionate person.  A person who helps others, takes care of themselves and the world, and lives life.

Personally, I think the individual who spoke these words should be impeached.  He has forgotten that there is a separation of Church and State, and has violated the Consititution with his comments.  The only reason given for his anti-abortion stance is his religious convictions.  Where’s the science?

Love & Light to All. . .Karen